I'VE GOTTA BE THE ONE TO TURN AWAY

I promise (pinky promise even!) that after this post we will move on to aspects of Brandy that are brighter.  I do not want anyone to think that Brandy's story is about her wallowing in her pain.  Far from it.  Brandy's story is about her breaking free of her pain.  Acknowledging it but moving on.  Refusing to allow it to continue to control her.  Brandy's story is about freedom.  Freedom to be who she is.  We will focus on that after today.  However . . . 

I must share this song because it is part of what Brandy wants to say to Jeff.  It's what she feels but, at the beginning of the story, has not fully acknowledged and has not even begun to express to him.  

I didn't know who Porcupine Tree was a couple of years ago but now they are a favorite.  I may share many of their songs with you. Here is the first - "Remember Me Lover".  Please pay attention to both the music and the lyrics.  I have posted the lyrics below the video.  They are an accurate reflection of Brandy's anger with Jeff.  Enjoy.

I didn't want to feel like a slave to your mood swings, and i'm not saying anything I wouldn't say behind your back.

And all this shit could have happen to anyone, all that matters now is how you're going to pick it up, to throw it back.

It's so hard to get along, I always know what you're going to say. 

And this too, I hated you, I wish you learn to keep your mouth shut.

I never meant to start anything that I couldn't finish, now I've gotta be the one to turn away, it's time to react.

I meant every word that I said, yeah I really did. 

But you gotta understand that I was sleeping then, so relax.

I walked away, now remember me lover

I told you lies, now remember me lover

I took your money, remember me lover

I ruined you life, now remember me lover

It's so hard to get along, I always know what you're going to say. 

And this too, I hated you, I wish you learn to keep your mouth shut.

I've been through this with you about a hundred times. 

Agree to disagree, start again with our lives.

And every single morning I wake up and you're still there, but tomorrow you will be alone and that is all you deserve.